What a year! As I am writing this today, I can only feel grateful and blessed for 2020. For sure the world turned ups and down for me and obviously for so many people, but at the end of the day, all that is left for me is my gratitude.
I’m grateful for the time that 2020 has given to me to find my journey and walk in my new path.
As much as everybody else in this world, the 2020 is not the best year. I am lucky that I still can support myself through the pandemic. The pandemic itself has caused so many internal and external struggles for all of us.
I am not the exception.
I found myself in and out of rock bottom, I lost and found love just to loose it again, but then finally found my inner-peace and came back strong. It’s a hella of a journey but I couldn’t feel more grateful for where I am today. I am in such a good place, I am healing and growing and excited about what’s come next. I am proud of myself.
So, how did I get here? Hmm where do I start and how to sum up. As I journal almost every single day, it gets easier for me to write down everything through pen and paper, so well, typing is something else (lol). I see myself making baby steps in moving towards the better and I believe I am being guided every step of the way.
My learning
I was a bit hesitant to share this, but I guess there is nothing to lose.
I believe 2020 is my biggest year for my spiritual quest. I learned so much about myself and for the first time I took a deep journey inwards. I came to a realization that there are so many things in me that I need to heal. I realized how much my fears have taken over some important aspects of my life.
My fears of rejection, loneliness, and being left out had taken their toll. I lost myself on the path that I thought was the best for me. I did the best I could and instead, everything just fell apart, and I successfully fell off to the ground.
And yet, I got up just fine.
I take my time to heal, I take more time in silence and I pray more. I’m going through the process of acceptance.
The acceptance that lies for me to surrender, to forgive, and to have faith in God that everything will unfold naturally as it is supposed to be. The acceptance of the fact that there is plans greater than mine, that I am guided back to love, that everything happens for the highest good. I’m learning to practice more kindness and compassion not just to others, but most importantly to myself.
I learn to live in faith.
My journey of personal growth has taken me to a place where I found myself on such a beautiful road. I read books, joined a community of like-minded people and opened myself to a whole new world that I didn’t know exist. And the best part is, the journey has been sooo fun! I enjoy learning new things, making friends with people on the same journey as me, and I’m cultivating new skills that I didn’t possibly know could exist within me!
Along the road, inevitably I find myself going through ups and downs, as life, well, happens. I have bad days just like everybody else, however, this time around I could see life in so much love, light, and laughter. I realized that my perspective has changed with a more positive lens, I see and experience things differently.
I’m more grateful for a million little things in life. I learn to understand and use my energy wisely. I feel more grounded, I move through life gracefully and with ease.
In the midst of the pandemic, I’ve been feeling happier and healthier than ever! I started to find my flow, and really life is just miracles after miracles and miracles. I see the light within me and around me.
My wishes
My hope for this year is that I continue to heal and grow for the better. I know in my heart that everything happens for the highest good. I know that I am being guided and I let love lead the way.
I welcome what’s to come. I’m excited of what’s in store for me.
May this year brings more happiness and inspirations into our life. May this year be filled with love and light. And oh, laughter. 😁
With love, light and laughter
Inuk ☕
Header photo: Ubud, October 2020
TRI NURAINI 
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