*I updated this post on June 15, 2020 for clarity*
What a time to be alive. I know, too many times the Coronavirus pandemic has been mentioned pretty much everywhere. For me personally, today is the 6th day for me staying at home, ~ working from home, and do my best to do social distancing.
Who would have thought that the world is what we see today?
We do our best to take part in this pandemic situation, follow the necessary actions (eg. physical distancing, washing hands, etc..), give support to those in need, and pray for those who are on the front line. I couldn’t feel more respect for those who are in service, be it medical personnel, to cleaning services. Some people say, this is probably our mother earth’s way to cure ourselves as humans has made so many destructions, and this is probably true. Our sky is definitely clearer than ever, and so does the water. Is that all?
But that’s not only the case I guess. This situation perhaps has made each one of us step back and look back at our life once again.
I’m not the exception.
In the midst of this uncertainty, I find myself going through a deeper self-reflection.
Self distance
I was about to move out before the outbreak, but then I have to postpone it. Work was amazing, and now some of my projects on hold, and so many things just seem to go out the way I forgot one thing,
Things change all the time. Nothing is permanent. We have no control over it.
I am honestly not feeling too anxious or panicking. Well for sure I’ve got some feeling of that, but that doesn’t hurt so much anymore. I accept what it is.
I think one thing that most people (and me!) are hit by is what we called priorities, what really matters in our life. That really, things could change in a blink of an eye, that we have no control over so many things in life, that we finally see it through. Did we set our priorities wrong all along? Maybe this is the perfect time to look up our current priorities in life, what really matters to us, and perhaps re-arranging it back.
I also found my self in my own company most of the time, though of course, my family is around once in a while. I guess it is a quite realization for me that I found myself very comfortable having to befriend myself.
I don’t feel lonely.
I’ve been very busy during the day since working from home turns out you work sometimes even longer hours (lol), but I found myself in between with a sense of peace and freedom. I meditate more and I practice mindfulness more in doing ordinary things like preparing food, eating, cleaning the house, washing the dishes, playing piano, sipping my morning hot ginger drinks, reading books, and writing my journal at the end of the day…
I found more and more appreciation in every little thing, like the rain and the smell of the ground after the rain, the sound of the neighborhood, the food on the table, the church birds tweeting in the morning, and even the house chores I need to do (lol)… Rain is probably what I love the most.
I take time to sit with my feelings, try to listen to whatever my heart tells me, and learn more about my spirituality, trying to understand more about my self, God in my own understanding and everything around me.
I’m grateful for each of these moments.
Acceptance is also something that I feel we should uphold more in this moment of uncertainty. It is probably also a good moment for us to enjoy ourselves or practice self-love.
Nevertheless, I guess what’s more important is also to extend our compassion to the people around us, to the world.
Social distance
I watched Contagion (2011) the other day and it kind of freaks me out for a moment. Every human contact could spread the disease exponentially. That is also why we now need to do social distancing. But what does that mean to us?
This is probably not an easy part of this situation. We got so used to being around the people. I am personally someone who enjoys having real human connections like meeting people in person and having a direct conversations with. I am fascinated with people and what is inside their heads. Though it’s not the same, thanks to technology, it is now easier than ever to connect with people. But then again, I realize I don’t have all the energy to just socialize online (well, there’s work and stuff..). It kind of makes me think, who are the people that really matter in my life?
The answer is might be as easy as questioning who do we have in mind and whether we are checking how they are doing these days.
This social distancing also means there are many things that we used to do with friends and family have pretty much gone now, like going out, having coffee or dinner with them. I saw many videos on the internet that people are now started to play music, sing, or even play tennis with their neighbors, be it from the balcony or across the street. Funny enough I chat more with my neighbors now (though at a bit of a distance) and I started a dancing sessions with my niece who lives next door in the morning so that we can move more and it is soo fun!
If there is one thing I could learn about social distancing is that it doesn’t have to make us distant. I saw also many people around the world do more acts of kindness to others like donating to those on the front line, becoming volunteers in the medical facilities, creating a platform to share accurate information and so many more! Some friends of mine are now taking part in the testing kit design of the covid-19 with the government, and I couldn’t feel more proud of them.
Humanity isn’t dying after all.
We are all in this together.
So that’s that. My little reflections on this time of uncertainty. I pray that things will get better very soon. And when it does, we all have become a kinder and better version of ourselves.
Embrace each present moment, take care and stay healthy! ❤️
I’ll leave you with this reflection video, one of my favorite poem ever.. enjoy!
With love,
Inuk ☕
*Photos from Pexels.com
TRI NURAINI 
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